You are enough

You are enough. 

You are enough, and I hope you never forget that. In a world full of comparisons, judgements, and certain standards it’s hard to remember that we are truly enough. 

I feel like through this divorce I’ve “lost” a lot of good people in my life. And I put lost in quotation marks because they’ll always be there because they are just that good of human beings. 

My whole life I’ve struggled with not feeling enough. I’ve always felt like I’ve always had to put in more effort in friendships, relationships whatever it may be and almost have to force a reciprocation. Maybe I’m just not that cool. 

My problem is I just care. I care for my friends, my family, acquaintances. I feel for them and I will always be there whenever they need me. I’ve always played a poor me card that people don’t care as much as i do. But is that a bad thing? 

Is it a bad thing to be there for others? Is it bad that I can feel wronged but should someone need me I can’t say no? No because that’s me. And I’m imperfect and I’m human and I feel.

I’ve lost a lot of good people from feeling inadequate. From feeling like I’m not good enough for them, from feeling like they deserve so much better. I’ve said goodbye to a few because I didn’t feel worthy.

Satan is the worst. 

The truth is, is that we are all good enough and we all deserve so much love, peace and happiness. Get out of your own head. Take it from someone who can’t get out of their own head, you’re only going to wind up hurting yourself. You’re only going to wind up beating yourself up. 

I’m not perfect, and neither are you. We are all on this crazy ride together. Be nice to one another. Yes i have a past, yes I was married for 9 months before I couldn’t take anymore, yes I’m a single mom, yes my life is chaotic and busy and stressful, but it’s my beautiful life and I love it. 

This isn’t a poor me post either. I’m fully aware that it’s my own fault that I let a lot of good people exit my life based on my own insecurities. I hurt my own self by thinking others don’t care. 

I just wish and hope that you will never forget how amazing you are. That you can do hard things. That it’s okay to feel like you care more or put in more effort, it’s okay. All of these thoughts are perfectly okay and normal. Some days I just pray and wish that I could take me own advice. But that’s okay...

One day I’ll believe I’m enough. And I hope that day is soon for you when you won’t question, am I good enough?